We got out of the shower last night and the first thing he did when getting into bed was pick up a book of word puzzles. 15 minutes later he turned out the light and closed the bedroom door, expecting me to go from 0 to horny in 30 seconds. It always seems to work that way. Playing beat the clock isn�t my idea of fun and having only enough foreplay for him to get an erection makes things difficult. I have a feeling that penetration with insufficient lubrication is often part of the cause of my yeast infections. I�ve told him that a lack of foreplay pisses me off, that I�d rather masturbate than have him go in dry, but nothing changes his approach. Of course, he also tried to tell me that I never initiate. Well, I tried Saturday to no avail, and I also tried last night prior to watching the movie and was summarily rejected. I don�t know if my approach is too subtle or if he�s just bitching for bitching�s sake, but if he wants me to initiate, he has to fucking respond to it! I�m not going to put my ass on the line only to get shot down time after time. I�m making this out to have been a huge argument when it really wasn�t. It was just a few terse words exchanged before going to sleep sexless again.

I want things to be more like they were on Monday, where there was a feeling of spontaneity and enough foreplay to make me tingle. A lot of the time, I know I have to psych myself into going through the motions because there�s just too little precursor and I know that it�s not fair to me. This isn�t to say that I don�t eventually get into it, because I most certainly do, but I miss that tingle and know it should be there every time.